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att jag inte är såhär deppig längre.. håll huvudet över ytan..
12 juli
My first blog experience.. hm I've could have choosed a better time than this to start my blog since my life is quit up side down at the moment. But blogging has been on my mind for a while now and I want my freinds to be able to read about my life since they are spread all around the world.

When I was a teenager I was told that the teenage years were the hardest. Me and my freinds couldn't wait until we graduated "gymnasium" and turned twenty and all our teenageanguish would disappear and the life of wisdom and calmness would start. Ah were we fooled. Life is a pain in the as most of the time, full of boring daily life and wonders what the aim of life is. People think that the girl with the biggest boobs and the guy who earn the most money wins. People abuse drugs, sex, shopping and other people cuz they are not true to themselves. They have to drown their sorrows and feelings deep, deep inside their heads cuz if the feelings rise to the surface and they have to deal with them they would collapse. I think the word is having a crisis!

My best freinds and most of the new people I meet that I click with are all a bit complicated and haven't had a golden childhood. You can feel the connection and the kinship allmost immediately.

I think what it's all about is to have good freinds around you so when life hits you in the face you can lean on them and get support. Just the feeling that you're not alone, in situations that you never thought you would experience, is an enormuos help.

The last year has been full of reminders that you can't control life, life controls you! Big news öh. Well yes for me. You never know when Mr dead knocks on your door or Ms disease knocks on your window. And even how hard you try to escape the truth (with something mentioned above) life always find a way to get to you.

I hope this crossroad (damn Britney) will be for the better, just focus on me and my needs. I know I will miss him but hopefully I will be more than ok.

I promise.. the next text isn't going to be this deep. I have a shallow side too;)